Happy.
Today I feel happy because the past week this really cute guy that I see around my school was almost everywhere I was. So I was able to see that cute smile of his x). Sucks that i don’t really know him, but that’s okay.
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Just a normal day, making fun of my kuya like usually, but i guess i went to far this time because he snapped and started to vent to me how people always insult him and how he wants people to day thank you for once and yeah. I guess I do take him for granted sometimes, and there are times I feel really bad for him. I just wish that he wouldn’t be so stress over school stuff and learn to have fun, and to just ignore people. I know there are probably other people facing something like he is. Sighhh, I really hope my kuya will be happier in the further and have less stress xP
It’s been a while.
We don’t really talk anymore. Which kind of makes me sad now. When we were friends we talked alot, but when we liked eachother, we’d just talk once in while. But when we did talk it felt like it was just yesterday I had talked to you. But now it’s different. Even though we have the same class, same lunch, lockers are near eachother, we dont say a single word to eachother. I wonder if you ever think of me. Not like the lovey dovey way, but miss talking to me or something. Because I miss you, I miss our lame talks, how you thought all the weird things i do were cool, how you made me smile with your corny jokes. But w.e. Like what my friend told me, good things dont always last.
Officially done.
I’m done with you. I’m moving on. We don’t talk. Even in a crowded room we don’t talk. You’re too busy being friendly with other girls, you completely forgot about me. After I found out that you may have found feelings for another girl, I wasn’t surprised. But I was surprised at how I wasn’t hurt, and how my heart didn’t drop when I found out about that. I guess that just proves my feelings for you were really fading away, and have gone back to thinking of you as a friend. But I guess lesson learned at the end of the year. If you get close to making a guy a close guy friend, try not to fall for them. It’s better as staying as their friend because that way it won’t be awkward, it won’t people avoiding eachother, not alot of feelings will get hurt and most importantly you’ll still be ‘close’ friends.
One month.
It’s been one month since I haven’t seen you, and I thought I wasn’t going to see you today either, but when mass was finish, there I saw you at the corner beside the door - the place where I would always see you. Not like I was excited to see you or anything. Just haven’t seen you in awhile, plus you got a hair cut so really didn’t recognize you. I wonder if you noticed me when I left, and what did you think when you saw me… Cause its been awhile. And we don’t even talk anymore. You didn’t text me, I stopped trying. At first it was only you texting first, but then I started to text you, but it ended up only me starting the convo so I stopped because I thought I was being a bother to you. Mmmm, I wonder if you are going to be there on Saturday.
Awesome song
Beast - v.i.u.
Dear you,
I wish you didn’t act all lovey dovey with me then walk away, then few seconds later you act all lovey dovey with ‘her’. It’s not like I don’t want you hanging around her. I know you guys are just friends, but you’re actions sometimes make me doubt you still like me.
From me.
Dear you,
Please stop sending me mixed signals. I don’t like be confused all the time.
From me.
Still the same.
My feelings for you haven’t changed. Yesterday before I went to the zoo trip I saw you passing down the hallway and you saw me. We talked for a bit and you were sad that I wasn’t going to be in gym today because I had to go to a trip. But really I wonder if you were really sad that you weren’t able to see me in class. Cause apparently you were holding hands with her again… When I came back from the trip, once again you saw me in the hallways, we talked and you gave me a hug. That was something I tried to give you when I first saw you in the morning but you just walked away. Anyways, then you had to go, you saw me again outside of the school. You were about to leave but you didn’t. I’m guessing your ride wasn’t there yet. I thought you would have went to your friends, but instead you came behind me and said “Hey Babe” in a creepy voice. Trying to scare me. I was with other guys,but even so you still caught my attention and we talked for a bit. You held you hands up and so did I. I thought you were going to do some hand game thing, but then in the end we held hands. Not in a friend way but like.. with our fingers in between. We talked for a bit, then you left. I’m not sure how you left but I know you did not saw good bye to me. But it’s okay. My long weekend started out good (: Even though I’m trying to move on from you… I’m still thinking about you. I know no one is trying to stop me from liking you, like what my friend told me. But I don’t think it’s the right time for me to be liking you. Like you know that saying “You can have the right thing but at the wrong time.” Or something like that.
Final Decision.
This week isn’t the best, but it made me realize that I should just move on from liking him. I mean nothing to him anymore. He doesn’t talk to me anymore. He’s too busy with another girl. I guess even with us not going out you still ended up breaking your promise. It doesn’t seem like we’re friends. Just classmates : P But whatever. Seeing you with her didn’t really hurt me, or made me jealous. It just made me doubt and loose faith in you. Oh wells, maybe Mr.Right is somewhere out there.
